The Countdown
Three more weeks of school. I can't believe it. It's completely incomprehensible that I'm almost done with my freshmen year of college. Seriously. Part of me is sort of excited to start packing... it's one of those things where I get excited for a big chore or event, and then once I actually start doing it it gets much less exciting and more daunting. Like scheduling. But for now I'm still excited. It's definitely going to be weird.
Lianna is going to come visit me this summer. =) So that will be fun! Originally I was going to visit Ben and we was going to visit me as well... but I don't think that's going to happen. ='( He'll (hopefully) come visit me, however, I don't think I'm going to be able to get out there this summer. My mom only wants me to visit back out east if I can just leave early for school instead of coming back and fourth. To save money, and theoretically; time. Which really makes sense... but it wont work because Ben has some crazy scheme with our friend Carter to fly out to California (where Carter is doing a co-op) and drive back with him climbing along the way. So obviously I can't drive out early to visit him if he's going to be driving across the country. It all sorta sucks because it also means his visit to Colorado will be shorter too. *sigh* Oh well. I don't think we'd break up even if we didn't see each other at all over the summer. But it just sucks that we sort of have the OPPORTUNITY to see each other and can't really use it. Such is life?
I also think I'm going to have a REALLY hard time finding a job this summer. I get home so late most of the places hiring will already have hired. This ends up being quite the bummer because I need money for a climbing membership at a gym in the springs. (Because as of right now I doubt I'll be able to find people who want to climb outside consistently enough to stay strong and a decent climber over the summer, at least for a while. I could bolder outside alone, but there's no way I can do sport climbing or even top rope or anything alone.) And that's going to be about $120 bucks. Also I sorta want a new sleeping back for camping. But my biggest priority at the moment is a NEW DSLR!!! I want. I'm wanting to get a Nikon D300. For those of you who know of the glory that is a Nikon D3 (pretty much the best camera on the market right now... which my boyfriend happens to own) this camera is pretty much the less-pro version of it. Give or take a few features/thousand dollars. =) I wish I could afford a D3 though. Dear lord. =) It would be amazing. But who needs to buy one when they have a boyfriend who lets them use it! He really is such a nice boy... ; )
-i'm really not into him just for his camera... i swear hehe <3-
ANYWAYS.
It'll be really weird to get home and suddenly have NOTHING to do. Usually when I'm just sitting around I always am thinking "Oh i shouldn't be sitting... i should be doing this and this and this..." But... now I'm really going to have nothing to do. It's very strange. They put these posters up in our bathroom about things to ask ourselves/family when we come home to "readjust" to being at home after being "independent" for so long. It was stuff like rules, having friends over, do we still have our own room... all that sorta stuff. It kinda makes me feel like I've been in prison and have to readjust to the outside world or something.
Also, on a little side note. I've realized gradually that I really dislike change. Once I get used to one thing: living at home, living at school, a certain schedule.... I don't like it to change. I'm okay with temporary change like spontaneity. But when it comes to permanent change the "this will NEVER be the same again" things... I just don't like it. That might just be a human thing but even things like people getting new jobs that screw with the normal schedule I have permanently makes me uneasy. And I always have to talk myself out of it... because that's stupid.
I've also finally found a group of people I really enjoy being around here so it's a bummer having to leave them all summer. But I do miss my friends at home a LOT so it's going to be great to see them. And that's why god made facebook and video-chat anyways. Plus, I'm sure i'll be back here before I know it. Now I just need to figure out HOW i'm getting back. I definitely want to drive because life as a photo major without a car is completely miserable. I was sort of able to work around it this year... but there's no way to do it as I get more serious. I'm pretty sure neither of my parents will be able to drive back with me. I do NOT want to do it alone. There's a SMALL possibility that my friend Molly might be able to drive with me? (she's going to school at SUNY Purchase which is a little ways outside NYC) If all else fails my friend Ian is driving back from Cali with his dad so I could meet up with them somewhere. I could also possibly drive along with Ben and Carter... but a) I haven't actually been invited, and b) I'd probably just slow them down 'cause i'm sure they'll want to climb stuff WAY outside my skill level. =( Why must everything be so complicated?!
Oh well.
I spose I have some time.